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Because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. James 1:3-4

God is speaking and working!

Stay tuned for the plans God has for me!

Twist Again

Well I must say God never ceases to amazes me. God used international adoption to help me advocate for Reece's Rainbow. And I will continue to advocate for them. Until it is my turn.

God will deliver my little man in his time and everything will be wonderful! I am praying for God's timing in this and that I will have peace until that time comes. My house is eager to be a home to a little one and a family waiting to welcome another member!

Blessings,
Erica

So Excited!

Well friends it is official! I am going to Russia to adopt Dmitry P. in Region 16! I am so excited that I am about to bust! Now to apply for grants, ask friends and family for help and fund raisers!

Anyone that would like to help being with money, prayers, or a helping hand for fund raisers would be greatly appreciated! I have my home study update today at 5:30. And we are off on our next journey. Also I have one of my grants going before the comittee 4/6/10! Wish me luck!

Please pray that we can get this show on the road! My little Russian man is waiting for me to bring him home!

Erica

New Adventure

Let me start out by saying GOD IS GOOD! Through this tough time I am stronger than ever. I have inquired about the precious little one in Russia. They are checking to see if he is still available. If he is I fell God may be sending me to RUSSIA!!! It is going to take all of my friends, family, and friends of friends to bring him home. The ideas for fund raisers are swirling and I am going to talk to different groups about donating to his adoption. Since all of the money from the first adoption is gone I have to start from square one. It will take all of my resources to get this off the ground but I know God provides for the faithful and obedient.

If God takes me to Russia and we bring him home he will be the first in his region with a Special Needs adoption. And there is a list of little ones to be adopted behind him that are not available until he is adopted. Pray for all of their forever families also. I am so excited about the possibility of making such a difference in a little life. My mom is nervous but she is my mom that is her job. =D She doesn't want me to get hurt again. And neither do I but life is about taking chances and God will carry you through. And his plan has not completed itself yet. I heard someone say you can be on the right path and God can change his mind he might decide he wants to use you elsewhere. This is what happened to me. I did everything I could but God had other plans.

I pray that if this is God's will he will work all things out and bring peace and clarity to the decisions that face me in the near future.

I will leave you with this thought...
"Once our eyes are opened, we can't pretend we don't know what to do. God, who weighs our hearts and keeps our souls, knows that we know, and holds us responsible to act" Proverbs 24:12

~Erica

Sorry it has been so long. I was flying under the radar for a bit. As most of you know we came home with no little one. His parents decided to parent him. Which is a good thing. It didn't hurt anyless but it is a good thing. So now I am seeking the little one God has for ME.

I am looking at some different options. I am looking both International & Domestic. Russia has a CUTE little one who is 9 months old. Wow I know. That is HUGE! Please keep me in your prayers and my Aiden.

God blesses me everyday through the tough experience and I get to share that with others.

Erica

Still Hoping and Keeping the faith!

Well it is gloomy here in CA! We are running out of options. We really only have one left. I am struggling with myself right now. Did I do something wrong or could I have done anything different. I do not think God brought me on this journey for my heart to hurt like this. I am faithful and in prayer for God's will. I just don't feel like God would bring me here and let me hold him, bond with him, and love on him to snatch it out from under me. I can not express my hurt and my mom is sad because she can't fix it or take the pain away. I feel like I have lost a child. But I continue to pray for peace and clarity. Please continue o pray for my family we are all trying to find peace. And I have realized things over the past couple of days that I would have never though about. Like a more closed adoption. I wanted them to be able to know as much as they wanted. My thick skin has set in and I am trying to be strong for mom and for my sanity.

Please pray that if this is MY Aiden it will work out and if not PLEASE pray for PEACE. This really sucks right now!

Love you all
Erica

Little Bit of Faith

Well Friday we flew out here to CA to meet Aiden. He was precious. He scrunched up his little face and I patted him on bottom and he calmed right down. He was so tiny. But so much love in one little body.

The next day I got to go see him and the nurse said I get to hold him!!!!!!!! It was so funny once I help him his O2 sats, body temp, and respirations all were steady. We went back that night and held him some more. He was on room air. The nurses said our earlier visit must have been good because he held steady all day! Go Baby Boy!

Today he was doing great! He had no tubes and no stickers on his face. Precious. He opened his eyes and keep them open for about 45 minutes. He would smile and touch my face. Oh how I love that little boy. Then this afternoon we hit a snag. They called and said that the birthfamily decided to keep him. I was crushed. I cried and cried but I know God has bigger plans. I talked to the Lawyer and I feel a little better. It does suck but I am not giving up. I fought to get my profile seen for him and I am fighting for this baby again! Keep praying for this I feel like tomorrow is a better day.

Love you!
Erica